It was pouring rain as I sat there in the car with a manila folder in my hand containing all the documents I needed. I couldn’t get myself to get out of the car. I sat a little longer listening to a little Avicii and getting myself pepped up. I took a few deep breaths and headed inside to hand over another child to the school system. My heart. With my first born it hurt a little. With my second, I was a pro. No big deal. But with my BABY! Just sadness. I can’t believe it is his turn for kindergarten already.
I was in and out of city hall rather quickly seeing I had everything already filled out, signed, and copied. As I said, I was now a pro. It was like ripping off a band aid. In and out. As I took the elevator back down to the lobby I felt my heart sink with it. All those questions and anxieties came rushing to me again. Leaving my baby with a stranger all. day. long. Are they going to understand his personality? Will the other kids be nice to him? Will they accept him and his strange new “recipe” of bananas with cheese crackers? Will he be trying to escape the classroom and run down the hallways in search of his brothers? Then I remembered the ONE thing I was actually looking forward to… all three boys in the SAME school!!
At last the playing chicken with oncoming traffic through two towns to get him to school on time after dropping off his brothers will be over. Still my heart is aching a bit. Bittersweet.
This is perfect. My brothers going off to college was the worst. My mom couldn’t let the babies go. Me. The middle child. I got dropped off kissed and dinner the next day before they left. All these steps leading to adulthood… they’re not fair to parents!
Aw. So sweet. He’ll love it though. He’ll be so excited to be just like his brothers. That will get you through!
My son starts middle school next year and it feels like kindergarten all over again. I didn’t think that was possible. We have a tough job.
I am sending my son to preschool full time in September, and it is killing me a little bit! When did he get this big? He was JUST born!!
My son goes to 1st grade next year- big boy school- AHH! Good Luck!
I love your story. I feel each emotion in your words. Brilliantly written. I wish I could wave that magic Mommy wand for you on this one… but what a milestone of discovery Kindergarten is! xo
Aw!! I can’t handle it! I’m sad even just when I have to drop my little guy off at the babysitter’s. I can’t even imagine kindergarten – but I know it will be here before I know it. He’s going to love the moment when you pick him up each day – for sure!
What a cute story! I can’t believe my baby is in first and turning 7 next month. SO SAD!!!
My third and youngest child starts Kinder next year. I’m already feeling the fear and trepidation!